The Eye of the Storm

Just when you think things can't really get much worse, Life continues the throw curve balls. So many curve balls that I feel I'm in the middle of a tornado full of them. That doesn't make sense? Well, then it's a good thing only three people are gonna read this.

The past few weeks have been awful. Although I'd like to say I'm not complaining, I am. But above all of the complaining, I've had to form some sort of faith and belief that things are going to get better. They will...it's just a matter of when. I feel like I'm sort of being held under water and just haven't yet been let up to breathe. I'm losing some babysitting hours with the two little girls that make me the happiest I can be when under stress...and all of it is because their parents are struggling with financial stresses. School is hard but more than that, it's just not that efficient. I have a lot of work that needs to be done but there is a lot of "hurry up and wait" going on because, interviews and stories are halfway out of my control. I can contact as many people as I want and it's up to them if they get back to me, if they want to talk to me and WHEN they want to talk to me. Im at the mercy of those I need as sources.

But all of this is a good thing. I need to be more flexible. I need to be less A-type and more "go with the flow" type. And most of all, I need to figure out what makes me happy and do it. So for now, even though I know it's all going to get stressful again, I want to focus on the peacefulness that is nature. I went walking with Jordan last week around the reservoir where I often run and it couldn't have been a better day. Crisp, clean air. And calm calm waters. Awesome.