Remember that time I said I needed to export pics, save a whole mess of things onto my hard drive and clean out my comp so that it would start moving quicker? Oh, you don't? Maybe that's because that was 4 months ago and I still havent done it, which is why I have put off posting for so long. It took at least 12 minutes to upload these four pics and that's that best I can do for now.
my grandparents:)
Anyway, I'm in the "real world" now...whatever that means. I thought the real world meant that I was finally not going to be spending all my time alone during the day, that I'd be making more money and that I would be comfortable in saying that I "have a life." Well, none of that has happened. I'm working part time at a newspaper at night three days a week, babysitting during the day and relentlessly searching for a full time job during the day, by myself, alone, with nobody around. I feel like I could throw up at any given moment. I'm so nervous about my future and just want a normal life. PLEASE, SOMEBODY, ANYBODY. I want a job so bad I can't take it.
I always said I could totally hack it working nights and weekends and I can...but, after working for free for so many years, being long distance with that strange man I call my boyfriend for 5 years and being away from my family in a city...I just want to be with people. Is that so much to ask? Apparently. But...in this time that I've been literally too anxious to eat or even run more than a few miles without stopping so that my heart rate doesn't cause some sort of trauma to my body...I've been trying to take advantage of the weather, my "freedom" and those 4 nights a week that I get to see people and Jordan.
I went home for a week, got to be at awesome family events, celebrate my 24th birthday (gag) at home, spend time with Jordan's family at home, go to Nantucket with my grandfather and sister for a weekend, go to dinners/out with friends, see Jordan's pro lax team (he's so cool) play, cover the entire Mass state high school lax tournament pretty much and be outside in the sun whenever it decides to come out. And...I'm about to go home again and to Aspen (mmm). So, for all that stress and complaining I've been doing and the ulcer I'm giving myself trying to get a full-time job...things are actually going remarkably well. I.need.to.calm.down.
Have I mentioned that I was named "Biggest Spaz" in high school?
My best friends
Two of my favorite sisters (wink) who I forced to buy me flowers
My really cool Mom and Dad and small balloon friend
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Oh. Thanks.
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